Tuesday, March 29, 2011

What's New?

Beside the basic necessities of survival, is the pursuit of happiness not the most sought after goal in life? Then why is it that human beings tend to put this quest aside for the most trivial of tasks? We as a western culture have lost the passion to be happy. What has led us to this contentment with misery, with drudgery? In an attempt to find happiness, I think it is imperative to combat the falsehoods that drive the overwhelming majority away from happiness.

I understand that happiness is a state of being technically able to be attained by any means. But I am not interested in attaining happiness, I wish to sustain it.

The 'pursuit of happiness' as an adventure in tracking and capturing happiness is seemingly no longer possible as there are blazed trails in which we are told will lead to happiness. We all follow these trails, consciously or not, only to find they are dead ends. Therefore, happiness is no longer achievable through the adventure of pursuit but, instead you must battle, battle hegemonic ideology, battle corruption, battle nonsensical logic.

A forty hour work week is the western standard for a full time employment when this is held up against the one hundred and sixty eight hour week it may not seem too intrusive however if we also subtract the seven hour a night sleep that leaves you with a mere eighty hours to pursue happiness. Remember this does not include the commute to and from work or any other misused time. There is something fundamentally wrong when we devote considerably less then half, in actuality a mere fraction of our time on this earth towards the agreed upon ultimate goal of life; happiness. The obvious argument would be that I have made the assumption that work and other uses of time to be in some way counter to happiness. I would refer to the subjectivity of happiness and how eating shit I suppose could lead to happiness for some but I find it hard to believe that the majority of the western culture is not only content but happy with being enslaved and stripped of their time, essentially eating shit. I will now take a moment to tip my hat to Bertrand Russel for his work In Praise of Idleness. Western culture in its entirety has condemned idleness and praised hard work, from the church to the state, idleness has been accompanied by Satan and mischief not happiness which is why the battle ahead is an uphill one, but one worth fighting.

In the below conversation we discuss the relationship between working and consuming and the affects that has on happiness.


Frank [1:35 PM]:
 I have been listening to this book, Walden. By Henry David Thoreau. Same guy that wrote on the
duty of civil disobiedience. Pretty awesome so far. Just talking about how we are slaves to things.
How we toil away so hard for little return. 
Peter [1:38 PM]:
ya i think that can be boiled down to our need to belong
we throw away logic just to have an ipod when there are other things better
Frank [1:42 PM]:
 very good point
 interesting take
 I agree
Frank [1:44 PM]:
 Actually he starts to get into that a bit. About clothing
 how close it is to us as creatures although not always necessary. But how we throw stuff away rather than patch it. How the more worn clothing is the more part of us it becomes. 
 It is pretty deep, I have to listen to it again to pull out the implications. But you added a new angle
I like. 
Peter [1:47 PM]:
it is very interesting our obsession with new
Frank [1:48 PM]:
it is. Trying to peel back the reason is interesting. 
 Status? Cohesion?
Peter [1:51 PM]:
ya most definitely not just one underlying motivation but definitely interesting boiling it down to the root causes
Frank [1:54 PM]:
You are right, it's a multitude of things. What would be really interesting is to take into 
consideration how important new things are to those root causes. Maybe even doing an experiment.Peter [1:57 PM]:
ya the concept of new would be hard to tackle
Because it covers absolutely everything
Frank [1:59 PM]:
 I guess I am more interested in the obsession with accumulating, and often discarding, large numbers of material things. 
 To sell ones very life in order to obtain these things is to me insane.
 But I guess here I am right. 
Peter [2:00 PM]:
ya it makes no sense
to work for so long and so hard to constantly refresh everything
its like companies grow and need new things fine
but im sure a buttload of them are refreshing for the sake of it
we refresh for the sake of it in many aspects of our lives
which really keeps us stagnant
Frank [2:01 PM]:
well put. It is a facade of fresh
Peter [2:01 PM]:
ya its weird i caught myself buying a book from chapters being like did i just spend 20 bucks on this when
i know its 1 dollar used in some awesome mom and pop book store
the value of fresh is the majority of the value we pay for
That's why if you stay one step behind technology you dont pay a 1000 for a ps3 when it launches but instead
200 bucks now
Frank [2:03 PM]:
and really, what did you miss? Its funny how conditioned we are to avoid stuff thats used. Like it is
dirty in some unholy harmful way. 
Peter [2:05 PM]:
ahahah ya
Frank [2:16 PM]:
But men labor under a mistake. The better part of the man is soon plowed into the soil for compost.
By a seeming fate, commonly called necessity, they are employed, as it says in an old book, laying up treasures which moth and rust will corrupt and thieves break through and steal. It is a fool's life, as they will find when they get to the end of it, if not before.
Peter [2:17 PM]:
ya once they catch that carrot thats always been infront of there face they realize it was just a carrot or worse
never even catch the carrot and just realize they chased nothing
Frank [2:22 PM]:
It is disturbing. But like most cults, knowing its a cult is not always enough to resist. I am going to throw you another quote from the book: Most men, even in this comparatively free country, through mere ignorance and mistake, are so occupied with the factitious cares and superfluously coarse labors of life that its finer fruits cannot be plucked by them. Their fingers, from excessive toil, are too clumsy and tremble too much for that. Actually, the laboring man has not leisure for a true integrity day by day; he cannot afford to sustain the manliest relations to men; his labor would be depreciated in the market. He has no time to be anything but a machine.


Working and consuming seem to be activities we spend a great deal of time doing. Evidently, the two are interrelated. If you are buying all the latest gadgets and have an obsession with the new and novel, you quickly require better paying work in order to fuel this process. I suppose the big question here is why? Why do we engage in this process? Why do we believe it is the only way to live and more importantly to be happy?I think if any one of us took a couple minutes to meditate deeply on our day to day actions, we will find a great deal of what we do is automatic and in actuality detrimental to our true happiness. Too often, as the cliché goes, we are our own worst enemy.

As aforementioned sometimes knowing you are in a cult is not always enough to get out. If being aware is not enough then what is the next step in bettering yourself and moving towards sustaining happiness? In my relatively short lived journey I am beginning to understand it's about breaking habits that I have reinforced with the help of external forces. These habits include the obsession with new and the demonizing of old or used. If I am to break free from this stagnant constant refresh of new and move towards something better, habits will need to be broken. This task is not a flip of the switch. Action against our norm, not to mention societies', is not an easy task. Which is why I am taking small steps in the right direction. I challenge any and all to refrain from buying something new and instead see the value in something old. Specifically, borrow the next book you read. Reach out to a friend for a recommendation and note the value in this human interaction opposed to a store clerk exchanging currency. Reduce your material consumption. Start taking the wall of detrimental habits down brick by brick.

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Job Title: Aspiring Human Being

Good Afternoon World,

I had a strange moment this morning I thought I would share. I was walking to work, on the last leg of my often profoundly eye opening journey, and I suddenly became overwhelmed with the compulsion to write myself a note. I suppose I had been day dreaming of leaving the company and, as I often do, started visualizing the process. I just began typing a note on my phone, to in some way, answer the stupid, all too common, question, "What will you do?" or "What do you do?" This will be an answer to both myself and everyone else who asks me those questions following my departure from this company and as I move along through my adventure:

"I am going to learn to talk to strangers, enjoy it and do it more often. I going to lose the fear to fail when the task is noble and I am passionate. I am going to develop a sane relationship between my material needs and security and the real reasons for living. I am going to build and find community. I am going to expand my mind forever. I am going to help others. I am going to develop an unconditional love for life."

That's what I am going to do and that's what I am doing. It is never complete and never will be. The list will only grow.

Anyway, I wanted to share that with you. I think that question is so ridiculous and narrow minded. It is telling that this is one of the main questions we ask each other. I had struggled with answering that in the past and I think now I will refuse to answer the question with a simple economic answer describing my job. Having a note like this to read every day will help me solidify a proper answer and also make it be true.


Regards,

Frank
Aspiring True Human Being

Friday, March 11, 2011

A seed a stranger gave to me and planted on my tongue

Lunch time conversation really has become our battleground of choice. It typically begins as a time to just breathe deep and try to forget where you are but almost inevitably evolves into a skirmish between the forces of bland shallow filth-speak and some decent conversation and potential laughs.

Today we found ourselves smothered in what can be best described as ignorant, boarding racist, garbage speech from a woman who sounds like a slightly punch drunk wanna-be gangster who believes the misuse of a dictionary will help her sound ‘more smart like’.

Her loudspeaker of a face dominated most of the conversation that began with a simple inquiry into a friend’s trip to the Bahamas. She wanted to explain to death the fact that the Bahamas has an airport which is disproportionately shitty in comparison to what she believed to be a wealthy island. We did what we could to dispel her misconception of one of many poor island nations that have multinational resorts funneling money out of the country. She couldn’t handle that and quickly began a diatribe about some rich friend of hers. This is a typical tactic she uses to woo and awe us into enjoying her obnoxious, fat headed presence. Here is the conversation that followed.


Peter [1:33 PM]:
 we are too nice
 we make one good point and the conversation is gobbled up by gross people
Frank [1:33 PM]:
 hahaha
Peter [1:33 PM]:
 with a hollow fact
then sequayed into a useless story about a rich friend
 ya we listen too much ahahha
Frank [1:34 PM]:
 she is always mentioning her fucking rich friends.
Peter [1:34 PM]:
 ahahhaha
Frank [1:34 PM]:
 boring. Next time I need to just start a side conversation overtop;
 I am not sitting through another rich friend story.
Peter [1:36 PM]:
 ahahhahah
 ya we gotta avoid that at all costs
 "do you understand that the people that go there are primarily richer than most people" - in regards to the state of the airport which she is furious there is only a wendys and no duty free
 when if you look outside you see people in huts
 unreal

As I was writing a response something clicked in my head as a colleague went to sit down at the desk behind me. I engaged him in what began as simple small talk. I reached out to someone I sit near and never spoke to. I don’t know why I had never spoken to him. The conversation evolved quickly as we both realized we shared viewpoints and a disdain for this environment and the world that bred it. We spoke about the shallow nature of this culture and the misleading notion that this corporate servitude is the path to happiness. We discussed our fears and limitations. We pondered our conditioning and how we can get outside this to help others. We even engaged one of the high five brothers from the other day. We may have even planted a seed in there somewhere. I was inspired and filled with renewed hope. I walked down to Peter’s desk to tell him. 

Frank [2:02 PM]:
 its brutal!
 Sorry, I started one of those conversations I wanted to before
Peter [2:03 PM]:
 no worries
Peter [2:14 PM]:
 it is amazing seeing others work through ideas like that
 especially if their eyes are opening for the first time
 its like giving birth to a real conscious human
Frank [2:20 PM]:
 its so much fun
 taking them the next steps that they are afraid to ask why
 Rob was talking about how his favourite thing is going to the bar and getting wasted and blowing like 600 bucks.
 Then I asked him to stop and think if it’s the getting wasted and blowing 600 bucks that you enjoy or the crowds of people and interactions.
 he stopped to think for a good few seconds which with him is an eternity
Peter [2:24 PM]:
 ya man
 you witnessed human growth
 its perfect
Frank [2:24 PM]:
 hopefully its not just shrugged off.
Peter [2:25 PM]:
 it may be. Hell on some level I do that myself
 but the more constant the message the deeper it seeps in
 those soulless advertisers taught us that
Frank [2:27 PM]:
 hahaha thats so true. Proven also by our wonderful route learning school system
Peter [2:27 PM]:
 ahahha real things of beauty

Peter’s sarcasm was clear. But I had experienced something of true beauty. My day and likely life in some form or another was changed by stretching myself just outside my norm.

The conversation I had with this previously unknown intellectual and spiritual comrade drew in two more people after it started up again. We had at least 3 others listening while working. I could not have asked for better results. The conversation my brother and I had inspired me to speak up. My speaking up inspired others to engage and tackle these problems of modernity. We made progress and we reinforced our convictions. Imagine we could do this thing once a day. If we all could speak up just a little more we would realize we are not alone. The world is full of fat heads but it is also full of beautiful, inspiring people. We can’t shy away from confrontation and conversation.

I returned home with renewed exuberance. I sat with one of my roommates and listened to records and discussed all matters of life. We both learned a lot from each other. And the waves keep resonating out.

Do me a favor; just a small one. Take a couple minutes and watch this poetry reading.


 If you catch the message near the end, take some steps to implement it in your life. I'll leave you with this quote from Saul Williams' song, Talk to Strangers. It might just help a few things click.   

Talk to strangers when the family fails and friends lead you astray
When Buddha laughs and Jesus weeps and it turns out God is gay
'Cause angels and messiahs, love, can come in many forms
In the hallways of your projects or the fat girl in your dorm
And when you finally take the time to see what they're about
Perhaps you find them lonely or their wisdom trips you out

Maybe you'll find the cycles end you back where you began
But come this time around you'll have someone to hold your hand
Who prays for you who's there for you who sends you love and light
Exposes you to parts of you that you once tried to fight
And come this time around you'll choose to walk a different path
You'll embrace what you turned away and cry at what you laughed
'Cause that's the only way we're going to make it through this storm
Where ignorance is common sense and senselessness the norm
And flags wave high above the truth and the two never touch
And stolen goods are overpriced and freedom costs too much
And no one seems to recognize the symbols come to life
The bitten apple on the screen and Jesus had a wife
And she was his Messiah like that stranger may be yours
Who holds a subtle knife that carves through worlds like magic doors
And that's what I've been looking for, the bridge from then to now
Just watching BET like, "What the fuck, son? This is foul."
But that square box don't represent the sphere that we live in
The earth is not a flat screen, I ain't trying to fit in
But this ain't for the underground, this here is for the sun
A seed a stranger gave to me and planted on my tongue
And when I look at you, I know I'm not the only one
As a great man once said,
"There's nothing more powerful
than an idea
who's time
has come."


Thursday, March 3, 2011

Oppression? High Five!

As is becoming customary during the lunch hour, Peter and I broach topics which we feel should be of interest to rational compassionate minds. We look to both understand the opposing points of view and change them. Peter made a point while gesturing towards a tv, “the youth of North Africa and the Middle East are proving human’s are still willing to fight for what’s right.” There was a split moment of silent deliberation that ended in a disgusting spectacular fashion.
 
One of our collegues piped up, “I don’t care what goes on over there. They just need to find a way to get my gas prices back down. I’d be for bombing everything if we could just keep the oil.”
This was concurred with an over the head high five by the guy sitting next to him.

 To be fair, I understand shock comedy is in itself a tool for encouraging analysis. However, this was simple, brutal honesty. Here is the conversation that followed that lunch hour.

Frank [1:05 PM]:
 thats what we are up against.
Peter [1:10 PM]:
 yup
 set in their ways
 dont worry they will have mid life crisis
 or regret on death bed
Frank [1:11 PM]:
 I know but I want to save those ones too.
 I am spiteful in some ways but I have a hard time labeling lost causes
Peter [1:12 PM]:
 but you have to manage your time productively
Frank [1:12 PM]:
 they are a source of strength for evil in the world but they have been misled. They are the raised racists.
 this is true. But it takes no extra time to draw lines at lunch tables.
 to slide in questions
Peter [1:12 PM]:
 oh absolutely
Frank [1:13 PM]:
 thats what I can do in my everyday
 change my life to fit and change the minds I can
Peter [1:13 PM]:
 Fighting blissful (ignorant) happiness is hard
 but worth pecking at
 your going to face a lot of ignorance and confrontation but they just dont understand
Frank [1:15 PM]:
 which is fine. It’s a win-win when you think about it. It hones my skills. Reveals the heartlessness of their position. Reinforces and boosts the views of those who are already leaning my way.
Peter [1:16 PM]:
 for sure
Frank [1:16 PM]:
 I have the morally superior position
Peter [1:16 PM]:
 very true
Frank [1:17 PM]:
 well I mean you can argue the subjectivity of morality but when it comes down to it, people look bad and feel bad when they outright say, I would rather spend 15 cents less on gas than have people live in freedom
Peter [1:18 PM]:
 ya you change the outlook people unconsciously have by forcing them to verbalize it
Frank [1:18 PM]:
 for sure
Peter [1:18 PM]:
 and if they ignorantly cling to it they will be ostracized for being assholes
 or high fived
Frank [1:20 PM]:
 next time I think I will take a very serious approach. Just ask one question, Can you actually imagine what it would be like to have your family blown up over a dispute for oil?
Peter [1:21 PM]:
 ya when you try to get them into the other perspective it should shake the cobwebs loose
Frank [1:23 PM]:
 it should. If it doesn't at all, they have a damn strong defense mechanism or are sociopaths
Peter [1:23 PM]:
 ya however the hegemonic view is undoubtedly one that could only be held by sociopath
 they have created a nation of sociopaths
Frank [1:24 PM]:
 haha I just wrote something similar to Paul.
 we think alike. It’s a culture of learned sociopaths
Peter [1:24 PM]:
 for sure its scary how good they are
 like i am/was a sociopath im just smart enough to realize it and rebel against it
 smart people fall victim its sad
Frank [1:25 PM]:
 dont believe they are done moving things in that direction. We haven't reached the end game.
 smart people join cults.
 They use brainwashing, cult techniques.
 Consumer culture provides a source of meaning. Its all about filling that void. Displace community and organic culture and replace it with one which drives consumption. 
 creating needs and wants is advertising. Define beauty and capture the courtship rituals and displays.
 Define happiness as inextricably linked to products. friendship is over beer. Entertainment is on a screen.
 What we share is what we believe and what is thus real. Intangibles are defined by us. We create meaning in symbols. They have captured these and so to belong you must believe or at least reinforce the system
Peter [1:32 PM]:
 ya they are damn good at what they do its super scary
Frank [1:32 PM]:
 but when it is broken down, it is simple
 it is an economic hijacking of all that is human. The capital motive is the fuel for it all. What is enough?
Peter [1:35 PM]:
 ya people have broken down what it means to be human and are capitalizing on every aspect of it its sooo effing sad
 cause it seems like it works but its like eating junk food
 your full. the hunger void is gone but your not healthy
 no nutrients
Frank [1:36 PM]:
 well put.
 And the symptoms are brutal and sad. So much pain for what?
Peter[1:37 PM]:
 so much pain for a few people to have a bunch of stuff but still they are susceptible to that pain they cause

Again, we find our way of thinking butting up against the general sentiment. Where is the best place to battle this? Where can we start to shake people out of the stupor? Where did they learn this malicious indifference?   

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Green Carrot vs. Orange Carrot

Here is something slightly different that we will be doing. We want to put out there some of the conversations we have day to day within the office. It’s raw so it may be tough to follow at first.

   This is today’s conversation which I captured to throw online. While writing this I was also writing the intro piece you may have just read. You can be assured that I was not doing any work for this entire period. I firmly believe I am a better person now because of it. Oh and VoW stands for Voice of the Workforce. It’s a program for employee feedback that happens once a year. I can’t decide if it is better to pretend every year rather than every 4 or so like with our political system.    

Peter [9:56 AM]:
 you in the office today?
 off to a VoW meeting for an hour
 talk to you after
Frank [10:04 AM]:
 Let me know how that goes ha.
 watch for the bs.
Peter [11:28 AM]:
 thats why i went
 to see the unbelly of the beast
 it was everybit as disgusting as i thought itd be ahah
Frank [11:29 AM]:
 hahaha. The underbelly you mean?
Peter [11:29 AM]:
 haahha ya stopped typing my thought there
Frank [11:30 AM]:
 give me a little highlight. I love seeing the machine pretend to take input and care.
 its just such a poor puppet. So hard to believe even at its best
Peter [11:32 AM]:
 the best one was a question highlighting the process of VoW and how the issue falls to those who actually have the power to enact change.
 he basically just said “we have to find the things we as lower management have the ability to make change and band-aid the fix because the other stuff is written in stone. the real matters
 those wont change so dont bother
 but man lets figure out what i can do for you!”
Frank [11:33 AM]:
 hahaha. Lets shine the brass on this Titanic!
Peter [11:33 AM]:
 but of course he just focuses in on what we can do ... throws out tons of numbers to muddy the water ... then uses words like “what i believe in” to make it personal... that upper management has a personal connection
Frank [11:35 AM]:
 And of course, the personal connection is never as clear as when they point out how we are off on our pipeline targets and therefore the numbers tell us we have to reduce your numbers.
 We care about you numbers! I mean AND the numbers.
Peter [11:35 AM]:
 ahahhahahahahah
 ya like how sad is it that the masses can buy into such fake human care and connection
 have they truely not tasted the real deal
Frank [11:36 AM]:
 quite possible. Its not like the consumers we target are cared about more than us soldiers who are sent to get them.
Peter [11:38 AM]:
 oh and this one made me think... he mentioned something in regards to pay or compensation i forget the line of questioning exactly but essentially it came down to this... i would love to give you guys more money more this more holiday but the bottom line is that we are in a competitive market and there is no more room.. if we let up someone else comes in to take market share because they can do it cheaper.... correct me if i am wrong brother but wasnt that the issue the south had with ending slavery?
Peter [11:40 AM]:
 They feared the loss of a dollar over the loss of human freedom
Frank [11:41 AM]:
 You are brilliant. ON THE MONEY. Ha. Never thought of it in this context but yes!
 Interesting enough a good part of the north was interested in eliminating wage (salary) slavery just the same as whip and chain slavery
Peter [11:43 AM]:
 interesting ya i always hear bad ass quotes from the founding fathers / earlier presidents with anti-capitalist remarks ahahha
Frank [11:45 AM]:
Dear Employees,
 We have noticed our competitors are squeezing out their employee's dignity and freedom in order to better "compete". This will allow us to funnel more money upwards to the rich share owners because that is how a companies worth is determined. Look, the company will do better and you will get to keep what is left of your job. It is the only way things work. Don't think of alternatives thats automatically Stalinism and evil.
Peter [11:46 AM]:
 terribly evil because sadly once one person does this
 once good men are obliged to follow suit
 it becomes the indifference of good men
 then we see the result a system with this so ingrained in all aspects of society. ass shit
Frank [11:50 AM]:
 ass hit indeed. Ha. It really does follow in that direction.
 I wonder if it would really take that much to create critical mass in the other direction?
Peter [11:52 AM]:
 the problem is that evil men are driven individuals with clear goals chasing the dollar
 it never sleeps
 harder to sell people on an idea like happiness because it is not on the tip of their tongue or just out of their reach like money is ... a carrot to a horse
 we have to get the focus and attention away from the carrot so they can focus with a clear mind.
Frank [11:55 AM]:
 Thats very true. It is harder to "sell" people on something that is intangible in many ways. Also, it is not something that is permanent and will come and go as is part of life. Whereas, you can hold on to the new blackberry even though your happiness with it dissipates within minutes of buying it. 
Peter [11:56 AM]:
 exactly we have to alter their mindset so they are even open to accepting change or a new way
 they are indoctrinated
Frank [11:57 AM]:
 How would you get rid of the carrot? I mean really its removing the blinders so they see how harmful and destructive to them and others the shitty nutrient free industrial produced carrot really is.
Peter [11:57 AM]:
 i think you just hit the ball out of the effing park
Frank [11:59 AM]:
 the next question is how... and do you want to go to lunch?


I suppose the question we need to leave with you with is this: How the hell do we change that carrot from being money to real human interactions and experiences? Do you have any tips for helping people to realize they are pursuing, at the sacrifice of so much good, something they will never be truly satisfied by? As much as we joke, this issue has deep implications across our lives. Quite frankly, our very existence (spiritual and physical) is at risk.